Weekly Reflections
At the culmination of this week I’ve determined a few things about myself, one is that it is surprising how easy you can make meal-times when you have zero energy. Two, is that despite all the doubts I had, yes I can parent effectively with COVID. And lastly, Omicron is not mild. I don’t know why people lied about that, but it was probably the swindle of the year (yes I realize it is only January). There’s room for much more swindle over the next 11 months, but I’m begging God not to get too crazy. This isn’t really about the virus though, I’ve had enough of that topic. This is more about patting myself on the back because I’m doing a stellar job at the single mom thing if I do say so myself. I logged more sleep hours in the past 5 days than I do in probably a normal two weeks of my life and still managed to keep my daughter entertained, happy, and most importantly healthy. Although, it did take some strategizing and sectioning off of the house. The cherry on top is that I only had to call her grandmother for assistance once, and usually when I’m ill, my mom is on speakerphone until the affliction has run its course. So I’m definitely proud I graduated in that regard.
Being a parent is tough, doing it solo more days than not seems impossible but I’ve been at it for 6 years now and I’m not slowing down. Which is a far cry from the hot mess I was in her infancy. I never thought I’d be in this place of peace and serenity. It all happened fairly quickly too. One day my eyes were burning wondering when I would finally get some uninterrupted sleep, now sometimes I wake up alarmed that she didn’t bother me at all in the middle of the night. It’s refreshing, unless it’s a random nap she’s interrupting for snacks, but I’ll take that any day over what it was like in the beginning.
I also think my daughter has a new appreciation for mom life in general, because she was very caring over the past few days. It’s like she understood the illness and wanted to help where she could but also let me get rest. I’m rambling. I just wanted to say that I’m very proud of myself for the mom side of the house. I’m still sick, this still sucks, and I’m not sure how long it’ll last but I’m going to take my time. I’m always rushing to get back to whatever it is I deem important. The only thing that’s important right now, is feeling better.